Thursday: An Awesome Day.
After having a few days of tiredness and resting quite a bit, this new day turned out to have a surprising turn to it!
It felt Lighter. I felt Lighter, and the Atmosphere in our Home felt Lighter!
The Crows, who had been shouting in my garden for a few weeks were silent. They still came into the garden doing their thing, but now their lips were sealed!
I remember working in the garden and feeling a great sense of Peace.
I later realised that I was consciously feeling higher energies. They're really here to stay!
Friday: A Special Ordinary Day.
Of course my mind expected the 4th of July to be 'special' too. It was, but in a different way. It was a special ordinary day!
Well, a day of clearing up clutter for example, feeling that I'm in two Worlds, maybe three, at the same time:
My past, which I'm slowly but surely looking at with my eyes open and releasing.
My present moment, riding on the waves and doing my best to stay balanced. Feeling more alive than ever , wobbling on my feet, floating in my head and being amazed that I'm still able to do my daily tasks while all this is going on. Accepting and surrendering to it all.
And then the third world which is now showing itself more often. The invisable world, leading me to the new and giving a feeling of wonderment and anticipation. It's not a world I can grasp. It's a world that I melt into, full of new friends I've never been conscious of. So many different life forms. How could I ever have felt lonely?
When I read what I've just written, it looks as if I'm saying that I'm being born again!
Saturday: The Great Endurance day.
What a surprise! I woke up early with a Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer NOSE!
Bright red and swollen, plus six mosquito bites on my throat! I couldn't believe it! I thought we'd become friends and this was all behind me! But for some reason they'd decided it was time to give me another earthly experience, and not only did I have a terrible head, but I felt that I was floating in another dimension too. Going through the motions with daily tasks and wondering where I was at the same time.
What amazes me is that despite how I felt or looked, I was still able to function reasonably well. I have a feeling that I'm becoming psychologically stronger than I used to be.
'The next day (Sunday), while walking through the garden with my face still swollen, I noticed a lot of mosquitos. I think that it came from my heart when I said to them 'I've had enough, just leave me alone', and as far as I know they did. Later in the evening when I went to bed, a very loud mosquito attacked me. My first reaction was to defend myself in any way I could, but then I calmed down and started talking to her, thanking her for leaving me alone and in peace. She disappeared and I didn't hear or see her again. The same thing happened with Henk and Conan when they came upstairs. She went for them, and when they remained calm and talked to her she left them in peace.'
I felt that the mosquitos communicated to me that they only want their presence to be acknowledged, just as we acknowledge humans. That they're in our garden and they'd like us to communicate with them, just as we do with each other. I'm amazed at how easy it is for me to still slip into the 'us' and 'them' way of thinking and I realise just how steeped I am in the way I've been brought up.
Saturday was also the day we'd planned to take all the clutter we'd collected during the week to the Recycling Depot.
On the way there we found out that the road was closed temporarily due to certain activities. We had to take another route. All of a sudden the markers that had been showing us the way disappeared and we ended driving halfway across the town to get to our destination!
Looking through things of the past, can be challenging. You're letting go of a part of your life that doesn't exist anymore, but because many things are quite personal, they have a hold on you. No wonder it can make us a bit out of balance and let us encounter resistance! Still, the proud feeling of giving away an expensive dinner service from which I've never eaten from in 30 years is great! Plus the rest!
Henk my partner had reserved the afternoon for giving our Oak Tree (Majesty of the Green Realms), a Summer 'trim'.
In the past months his communication with plants has grown enormously. Days earlier he'd made contact with the Tree, asking his permission and guidance for the pruning, and the feeling was good. However, for some reason or another, when he took the ladder to put it against the trunk of the tree, it seemed to miss its goal and without Henk noticing it, ended up half against the tree and half in the air. Well, of course, it didn't take long before something happened! While climbing the ladder, Henk fell off backwards and landed with ladder and all in the bushes. He was lucky! After a neck and back massage from our son Conan, he had no physical problems.
I said: 'I thought the Oak had agreed to the trim?'
Henk said: 'That wasn't the problem. I've just been given an insight into the wilder side of my character'.
The next morning, in a different mood, Henk again went to the Oak. This time everything went calmly and smoothly. The work was finished in no time and the tree looked beautiful. Henk had cut off a branch and saw too late that there were a few flowers on it. The first we'd ever had. He straight away felt guilty, but the tree communicated with him, saying 'no problem, I just wanted to show you that I'm happy here and to tell you that next year there'll be far more'.
Greetings from The Lighthouse Family.